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We wake up and check the phone.
We look at the messages, try to remember the last part of the night and replay anything that might have gone wrong.
Maybe there’s something obvious. Other times, nothing terrible happened. We still feel disappointed because we drank again, drank more than we meant to or lost another morning. And once that feeling starts, it can stay with us for the rest of the day.
The body can make the thoughts feel worse
The thoughts are real. But we may also be tired, dehydrated, anxious and running on poor sleep. Our nervous system could still be unsettled as the alcohol wears off.
That can make every memory feel worse. A small awkward moment becomes a disaster. A message we would normally shrug off becomes something we read ten times. So yes, some of it is about what happened. But alcohol can make everything feel far worse the next morning.
Regret and shame are different
Regret is about what we did. “I wish I hadn’t said that.” “I drank more than I planned.” “I’ve wasted another day.”
Shame is when we take what we did and turn it into a judgement about who we are. “I’m weak.” “I can’t trust myself.” “There’s something wrong with me.”
And shame is harder to move past because it makes us feel like we’re the problem. Once we believe that, it’s easy to expect ourselves to fail again. But drinking again doesn’t prove we’re hopeless. The problem is that those morning promises may not be enough once the usual drinking time comes back around.
How the loop keeps itself going
We drink and get a few hours away from stress or uncomfortable thoughts.
Then we wake up with the physical effects and the regret. We spend the day feeling bad about ourselves, and by evening we want to stop thinking about it.
Another drink changes the feeling quickly. And that’s how feeling bad about our drinking can become another reason to drink.
The depression cycle can work in a similar way. Alcohol gives us a temporary lift, leaves us lower afterwards, then makes another drink look like the quickest way to feel better.
Why being hard on ourselves doesn’t fix it
A lot of us thought being harder on ourselves would finally make us stop.
We called ourselves weak, made another rule and promised we would remember how bad the morning felt.
But being hard on ourselves adds more pain. It doesn’t change the fact that later on, some part of us still believes alcohol will help. We can take responsibility for what happened without deciding it means we’re a bad or weak person.
And we don’t need a label or a dramatic event before we take the pattern seriously.
How self-trust starts coming back
We don’t get our self-trust back just by telling ourselves to feel confident. It starts coming back when we do what we said we would do.
We wake up and remember the whole night. We don’t need to check what we sent. We make a plan for the day and can actually follow it.
Those mornings may feel ordinary after a while. But for many of us, they’re a big change from the cycle we were living in.
We can regret things that happened while drinking without carrying the shame forever. And when we stop creating new mornings like that, we start trusting ourselves again.
— Brent
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